I’m still in complete inability to get my emotions under control, I didn’t sleep well last night, or perhaps just didn’t sleep enough. I feel like a walking emotional time bomb, at any minute I could explode into rage or tears or just go crumple up into a ball in a corner. My sore throat refuses to retreat, probably compounded by my current state of being. Yesterday I got so mad at my co-worker. Now I’m not overly materialistic, but yesterday I just go pissed ‘cos he’s the application developer, getting paid a senior level salary and he even supposedly has the development experience under his belt, yet he is constantly asking my help with everything. It irked me. Then when I’m trying to explain something to him, he’s so busy being a smart ass that he didn’t even hear me. And I refused to repeat myself. I’m the youngest person on the contract, yet I have to play babysitter to everyone? I don’t think so.
We’re supposed to go out and do the costume thing tonight, right now I don’t feel like it. But I’m trying to come around ‘cos I do need to do something fun. Lying around at home on my own is NOT fun. I haven’t really heard from Edwin since I left him voice mail and I don’t know what’s going on with him.
I still have to pack for my trip this weekend.. I’m so not ready for it, but I think I can accomplish readiness on Wednesday, then tidy up for Star Trek and guests.