drippy and strippy

Paint stripping is icky work. The stuff I’m using has a very pleasant orange smell, which is nice, but really distracts you from the fact that you’re going to have drippy, strippy stain and paint to deal with. But it is nice to have something to keep myself busy.

I’m still thinking a lot about Christopher.. ok, he hasn’t left my thoughts since last Wednesday, I just don’t know what to do about things. My feelings for him are still very strong, I just don’t know if its love, I’m not sure I have enough experience to know what that is yet. I do know that I don’t like going through the day without talking to him or hearing from him. I have a hard time sleeping each night. It seems like everything I hear lately is small talk, very trivial. I’m not wallowing in self-pity, I just miss him. My biggest fear is that he doesn’t know how much and that he might think that I haven’t thought about him at all since we talked.